connection

i am really connected to people i do not know.
i can learn just a bit about their lives and end up coveting their memories.
why can't their exeriences be my own?
why can't i be with them?
i believe i have made up this
fantasy world because my life just is not
interesting anymore.

seeing it all the way i've read and the way i've watched in movies or the media-- just the way it was described is what gets to me.
the fact the life is just as they say-- obscene and free-- it scares me.