what is good for you

it is probably not so healthy that i sit here
thinking what it would be like
to have you
to hear you
and actually understand
who you are
and why you are that way
i am sick.
sick in the head.
sick in the stomach.
sick in the blood.

i'm just poison.
pure poison.
that is reaching out to feel you.
touch you.
fuck you.
rip you open and eat you alive.

i am so selfish.
any part of you i'd ask for would be to better me
to create a new me.
to make me loose the human me,
and enter into the metal.

i just want to be a robot that
care too much but
acts too little
and smiles to little
and dies everyday
and revolts.

i want to be you.
i want your intellegence.

i want your experiences.


i want you love.