XD

went out with sam tonight. and last night. didn't realize how much i had missed him.
not to mention i'm so fucked up right now and i feel fucking amazing.

i love it so much.


also, i know things aren't right at the moment.
and i do not trust anything or anyone.
not even myself.


but on the good note, i do feel amazing.
i love every single thing about it.
the taste the feeling.
what it does.

gosh.

now that is fucking love right there.

better then coffee.

kevin and i stopped by joes today after going to the comic book store. watched teh boiz play teh WoW and schmoke teh bubbl3r. i could not wait to get home. when i got home, mi abuelita informed me that my grandfather was in the hospital. :(
so now i'm kindda emo.
i found my remote control so i can finally turn on the TV. nothing good on but i have my major light source back!! w00t.
tonight i promised kevin i'd go with him for a bit. i'm missing antiflag fo sho and this makes me very sad but oh well :(
i'm poor and have no money for the ticket.

i was gonna get sam to buy me one but he got his money stolen.

oh welll.


and now to the sl world. <3

gawd

going to sleep finally at 4:30a.m. just to wake up at 8 a.m. is not my thing.
i feel like i'm going to puke.
hXc.

grosss.

:)

i'm going to sleep smiling.

yes. i love youuu.

<3

:(

you're ignoring me on aim :(

i think i'm really emo.

oh and p.s.

/me would be fine with picking you up at the airport and bring you back to mi casa. <3

headache.

i'm pretty tired, thats for sure. but it's ok. i'll just take a nap or something.
church soccer and beer, eh?
more eventful then my day.

i just sent off my IRS shit.
yupyup.

106 dollars in teh negative now.
:(

stupid picture people.

fucking up my taxesssss.


i've been on and off sl today. nothing really going on. bought new shit...
you'll laugh when you see it.

i don't want to leave these covers. for some reason i'm freezing.
i'm getting sick :(
come take care of me, boo.

warm me up!!

kevin has called me every 30 minutes today because he is bored. however i don't want to leave my house or my computer really. i'm just waiting around.



meh.

i love you.

maybe we could be beautiful together.

i just got off second life. it was getting boring. i was just standing outside my favorite house at the den making all the pervs that came up to me feel like dumb asses. i kept getting hit on. and i kept telling them i was waiting for someone. and that someone had something to give me that they couldn't. not in the mood for rping i guess. i waited on aim. actually i still am waiting on aim. hahaha. oh wellll. i love you still.
i have 2 songs for you to listen to right now.
like go download them right now.
mirah~ "million miles"
sage francis~ "sea lion"
thats what i'm listening to right now.
i'm so worried abotu my laptop. my adapter keeps going in and out which pisses me off because i've had to purchase 3 new adapters since i started playing second life. that's 300 buckz right there. and i have no money to begin with.

my ipod is out of room. i need a new one that is bigger. bleh.

i'm afraid that if my adapter goes out i won't be able to get a new one. and the i won't be able to get on second life. and this really makes me panic for some reason. i hate being adicted. i broke the adiction and now i'm back. and i have a reason to be there again.

it sucks.

oh listen to sage francis "gunz yo" too.
i like that one. you will too. promise.


i have this cough all of a sudden. my ear is killing me. i was coughing up blood this morning after i had a terrible nose bleed. i have no clue why i had a nose bleed but whateverrrrr yo.



waiting and distracted-- i am
waiting
for the world to explode
be mine under stars
under water
under you i am complete
and demanding life
love
living on a disaster path
provoking this to
break
to create something beautiful
i am everything i never wanted soemtimes
everything you will never need

i think i just lost the rest of my mind.


it's nonsense
i'm jsut sleepy.


love.

you cried but no one came and the water filled your tiny lungs.

still on this bright eyes kick. i can't get out of it
it's just bright eyes on repeat on my ipod. over and over.

but it's so amazing.

i have to work 12-6 today. they need me now that they treated everyone like shit so everyon'es quit. and then they laugh when someone quits.


also, i'm kindda tired of people thinking they can be dick to me.
trying to be forceful and shit.
that's not going to work.

you spent how long being my friend and now you for no reason hate me.

oh yeah, you have a reason, but it's STUPID.


gawd. fuck you, asshole. you're a dumb ass anyway.


sorry i went off on a tangent. maybe i just don't understand why some people are such dicks.


i was a cute 18 year old.


you have to admit it.

well maybe not that cute.



my uncle needs my help burning a cd.

but i'm not dressed yet. bahh.





well i guess i'll leave you at that.
lovelove.

my jaw feels like it is out of place.

So here I am, standing on Second Life. Lost in Ims. And honestly, I'm kindda sad. It's different without patboo around. Really different. And boring.
I go AFK a lot.

I should be going to sleep but i keep staying on. I don't nkow why. meh.

Go to sleepies Tahnee. You have to work tomorrow.

in the morning.


nighties.


oh.


and i love you too.

write me moreee

pleaseeeee kthx.

p.s.

pat ramos.

i welcome you.

i am not sure what is really going on. i do not know what to believe. this is just a giant mind fuck and i do not know where it is going. but i'm rolling with it. letting it sit just a little bit longer, marianting in my thoughts before i give it up.
who are you??
and why me??

maybe i am just weak. but i'm nothing what you would have expected. i'm worthless. i'm unhealthy. i'm insane. nothing as beautiful or perfect as once percieved.

i am lost. floating in a timeless space of nothing grasping for anything that will keep me afloat. keep me breathing.

this is going to hurt.
i can feel it.